When God Rejects Us
-
We pray for legitimate help. We wait, and there is nothing.
-
Why?
-
Those who insist that every prayer is met with victory, if you pray hard enough, or tithe long enough, are wrong.
Jesus prayed to avoid the cross, but he died on it anyhow. The apostles were faithful in prayer, yet most were also crucified, as Jesus was, or put to death for their faith.
People get depressed when God does not seem to answer, or His answer is obviously “no.”
Sometimes God helps, sometimes He doesn’t. Why?
I have found that the longer I know the Lord, the less He helps me.
That does seem opposite of what I would expect.
But as I mature in faith, my faith is tested more. And I have to wait longer for anything, if I am to get it at all. God is present to help me grow in faith. If he answers too quickly, then my faith stays where it is at.
Many of us have legitimate situations. We are in serious difficulty: unemployed for years, out of money, terminal illness, etc.
We have to accept the reality of our situation.
If it is meant to be cured, then it will. If it goes on too long, we will die because of the situation.
Sometimes, we do not get another job in time, before we lose our house, and sometimes we do not survive cancer.
But this is the time to draw closer to God anyhow, because he may be all we have left. We need to also accept that it is not God rejecting our prayers for help.
God gives life and he takes it away. Our life is in His hands.
Maybe it is our time to go and be with Him.
Our heavenly reward will not be based on our success in life, or how well we got God to answer our prayers, or quickly overcoming an earthly problem.
It will be based on our faithfulness during a testing time, when God does not give us what we want.
It is the dark times when we are nothing, our life is nothing, and we have nothing, that we earn our crowns.
So when you see this happening to you, just look up to Him. He is watching you grow, and he knows the pain you are in.
He has allowed it, so that you will not only come to know Him and His sufferings, but also a greater weight of glory when you meet Him.
Do not give up. Be encouraged. God is not rejecting you.
You are closer to Him now, than you ever have been before. No matter how hard it is, just rest in Him.
-
[...] pray for legitimate help. We wait, and there is nothing. Click here for [...]
When God Rejects Us « Heaven Awaits said this on February 15, 2009 at 12:01 pm |
We’ll Stated and Presented! (ENDURE) It Shall All Come To Pass!
What a blessing. I’ve been in these dark times for years now and I have to say I love the Lord even when there is no answer. Because no answer, is an answer. It is not always what we want to hear.
I have experienced this. The Father and I used to have conversations, and visions and words from Him were commonplace. It had all the warm fuzzies we so like, even tho He was putting me thru awful trials for a long period. During that time, He kept His word that we would experience what He experienced. It was at once both the best and worst of times.
When the trials ended, life went on with not hearing His voice for a while. Then came a serious decision making time for me, and I asked Him for guidance. Nothing. I asked and asked. Nothing. I finally had to make the decision myself, and it came out well.
But I was confused and frustrated at not hearing His voice. I sat down and asked Him rather stearnly why He had not helped me. He said, “David, I put you thru those trials to give you wisdom. Now use it!” That was over 10 years ago, and I have not heard His voice since. I still get visions and words for others now and then, but nothing for me.
The 10 years were a “cave” time for me, for that seems like where I was. I lost all my friends, and had zero face-to-face fellowship. Isolated with no way out, tho I desperately tried. I had no purpose anymore, and begged Him to take me home, over and over. One nite at a meeting, a prophetess stood and spoke out, “Someone here is asking God to take him home.” And she sat down. I asked her if there was more, but there wasn’t. So it was God telling me thru her that He heard me, but no. So it went on and on in utter loneliness.
In the last 6 months, it seems I’ve come out of the cave and am now actually in fellowship face-to-face with some men. A situation developed where I was the only choice to take in a couple of kids while their parents are in prison. A 4 yr old girl, and 9 yr old boy, both undisciplined. It has been life-giving to me, having them around to nurture. So I have a purpose again, PTL.
Now, I have run into others who also are going thru isolation, and most find nothing in churches that feeds them at all. They are still faithful to the Lord, but confused at not knowing where He went.
As I mentioned earlier, we are to experience His experiences. I have wondered if we also experience His waiting for the Marriage Supper, as lonely for us as we are lonely for Him, just waiting for that blessed day. That is the only answer I can think of for why He would leave us lonely for His presence.
Early on, God made me know that Isaiah 40:31 was my personal Scripture verse. “He who waits upon the Lord will…etc;” Many times that verse fit with what I was going thru, but now it fits more than ever. So I wait. DavWms
Hi Rev Willliams
As dark as this world is getting, only those who have survived the darkness will have the light others need, when the pain begins. God is digging the well of compassion in you. It will have to be very deep, in order to serve him in this last years. You have not been overlooked.
You are preparing for the next “Passover.” God will only “pass over” those who have been faithful to the blood of Jesus, and have honored the Lamb. The rest will be punished. Get ready to move out in His Name, in the near future. The desert is ahead of you, but so are the miracles and provision.
blessings
marianne
Hi david,
A broken heart can mend the hearts of others. It has not been a waste of time. There is a purpose in the solitude. Only when we finally die, are we then alive again.
blessings
marianne
Thank you both for those sound words of wisdom. I have been alone so long I sometimes forget I’m not alone, because thousands are going through as I am. I find little notthing in the church but a lack of God’s presence, yet I trust Him regardless how I feel. The two of you know what I’m going through and I thank you for your words of encouragement. Be faithful. Love Bro. P Williams
I love it when I go thru the different Christian sites and find input from you there, Rev. Patrick. It is wonderful that now many of us going thru this isolation are finding each other. There is solace in company, even if it is not face to face.
I had a marvelous thing come about when I was about 3 years into my “cave.” No one I ever talked to could even believe God would isolate one of His children. It added to the loneliness, that no one would even believe me. Then came an email from a stranger. How she got my email addy, I don’t know, and she would not give info past just sending me printed sermons she heard at her church.
Those sermons explained the “cave’ experience. What a wonder to find that someone else even knew it was real! He even knew this was different than being put into a wilderness experience. I already had two of those, 7 yrs long each. They described what I was going thru, almost to a T. The only difference I found was the writer’s advice to grow closer to God while in the cave. I had no idea how to do that with a God that kept His distance, tho I tried everything I knew to do so.
Oh, how we search our heart in the cave, wondering what sin I committed to send my God away. But I only had the encouragement of knowing He will never leave nor forsake me, and those sermons to get me thru the rest of the decade in the cave.
Let’s keep on keeping on, til we hear from Him again.. Love, Dave
Look how Jesus suffered,Would anyone think they should not suffer in life? We are to be like Jesus,so why should we have everything we want? God is with us all the time, high on the mountains and low in the valleys….Praise God!!!!!!!
Hi Deb
Amen to what you say!
blessings
marianne
On another note, I received in your email about latest additions a link to some article about Obama signing a declaration re: Palestinians. I got it in from a secular blog myself earlier today, and when I sent it out a friend sent me back a note to tell me that it was false with a link to prove it. I could dig it up if you would like.
check it out here http://www.truthorfiction.com/rumors/o/obama-palestine-refugees.htm
hi Paul
Thank you for sending the clarification. I want to keep the facts straight regarding Obama. I try to be fair.
blessings
marianne
Some very encouraging words. As we enter into these finale days of the world as we know it, the darkness will most likely be surrounding all the saints. It gets hard I know. Inquity abounds and we are surrounded. Our love can not grow cold.
On another note regarding these sites like snopes that so many seem to put their faith in when someone questions an incident or mysterious happening. I want to share with you something that I found out and it was all Gods perfect timing in revailing this about sites like Snopes. Snopes , does not reconize Christ or anything pertaining to christians. I found this out several years ago personally.
We had an incident that took place not far where I live and it was in the national headlines. It was regarding a group of christians that entered a restuarant to eat on Sunday evening after church. They ordered their food, and one of the young girls in the group stood up in a chair and ask the entire restaurant to pray a blessing with her. Many in the establishment complained, the manager came telling them not to pray or they had to leave. The police was called and the whole thing really got blown up. It just happened that one of the adults with the group was a Woman Doctor.
An e-mail was being forwarded all over the country regarding this incident and christians were rising up due to the fact it was evident that restrictions are beginning to be seen regarding just saying a simple blessing before eating in a public place.
Well, I got e-mail after e-mail back after sending on the forward of the story, saying that Snopes said it was not true.
I personally called the woman doctor and talked extensively to her about the entire incident. And the entire incident was true and she admited also that the entire secular majority of the community was really playing it down.
In Short:
There are many hindrences out there sent by satan to try to hinder the truth of such things. There is another story circulating now regarding a Moslem father in Egypt murdering his wife for reading a bible. This father also after killing his wife buried a nursing daughter and his other young daughter alive with her in the sand in the desert. The Daughters by the grace of God survived and tell how a man with wounds in his hands and feet came to help them during the days they were buried. This word of this incident has been spreading throughout Egypt. Many have recieved an e-mail with this story. Snopes says the incident is false.
Anyway consider it when you read news of God’s mysterious work and some secular organization says it is not true.
Imagine what the majority will think when the two witnesses appear publicly. They will try to deny that too until they realize it is these two witnesses that have been sending upon the earth all the plagues and other birthpains that are to come.
I don’t understand the “Cave Experience”, but can appreciate it must be difficult feeling away from God. I have prayed that God will be truth to you in this time of darkness. God bless.
Hi Archie,
I do not quite understand the term Cave either, but Dave distinguishes it from a wilderness experience. Perhaps he could write something explaining the difference.
blessings
marianne
Hi Buzza,
Thank you for sharing that about Snopes. I did not know that.
As for the 2 witnesses, maybe it will be the man with wounds in his hands and feet that brings them back to life, after they have been killed!!!!
blessings
mariannne
one of the young girls in the group stood up in a chair and ask the entire restaurant to pray a blessing with her.,
I think prayer is between you and God.only.. not to make a big show of..Jesus said Not to pray as the Heathern do, in public making a big display out of it,and too.. lots of people complain and comdem people who do not go to church,on Sunday,but yet they all crowd at the cafes and the resturants to eat on Sunday,, Keep the Sabbath… that always got me! but for prayer,I think Jesus said to go into a closet and pray, I think the same thing applys to blessings before eating, bow your head and thank the Lord yourself.. I asked a Methodist Preacher to say a prayer over some food,I work with this guy, he is retiring and his dinner,just several people in the office,but he would not.. saying “our boss whom is Muslim,would get offended,, but to me, We get offended if we can not .crazy world…
Hi deb,
I do not think the girl in the restaurant should have done that, since it was a mixed crowd, and she would have been forcing everyone to go along with her. But her punishment was a bit unrealistic also. Buzza was just using that as an example of how Snopes will report a story as “not true” when it is true. The merits of the case is a different matter.
blessings
marianne
God answers all prayers, but not always the way we want them answered. He either answers “YES”, “NO”, or “WAIT”. Just my thoughts.
I’ll try to explan what I see as differences between the cave and wilderness experiences. They have many similarities such as silence from God and generally a feeling of being set aside. My first experience with a wilderness came in my early born again days. God rightfully put me in a position that chrushed my pride. I turned from Him with a vengeance, even eventually becoming an atheist. To prove I no longer believed, I even answered a Christian aquaintance by trying to vocally blaspheme the Holy Spirit in an effort to stop his arguments. It was a miserable 7 yrs as everything I tried to do failed. That period stopped when I heard how easily the Israleies defeated the surrounding enemies attacking them. I remembered what I had read in the Bible and knew that was a miracle. I pled with God to show if there was yet any chance to return to Him. A thot came to my mind. Charismatic churches meet on Wed. nites, so I headed toward a church in a nearby town. I had the choice of 2 places to go at the intersection, to the church straight ahead, or turn right to the other. There were two young men hitch hiking and I turned right to give them a ride. Near the town, I asked if they knew where that certain church was. One of them told me it was turn right at the next corner and you will see it. “Besides, that’s the corner we want off at.”
I went in, and would you believe the sermon title? It was, “So you thot you committed the unforgivable sin.” As he explained the subject, I realized God had arranged that, and even the 2 angels to guide me right to that church. So that wilderness ended that nite.
I ended up in another church where the Spirit was moving mightily. My wife and I loved it. But in time, I began seeing what was going on behind the scenes there. I did not know this was “discernment.” Over and over I tried to get filled with the Spirit at altar calls, without the signs they told us would follow. The combination of knowing evil was going on behind the scenes and my feeling rejected by God, I quit going to church, and again found myself in a wilderness of everything going wrong.
7 Yrs later, I heard words that sounded like they were God speaking to me. But I could not make sense of them until I went in the bedroom and found my alcoholic wife dead from liver damage. Then I knew what He had told me was about her dying, and that He had her in Heaven. That began a much closer relationship with God than ever before, even thru the grieving my wife’s death.
That lasted 7 yrs, and it was awesome to walk so closely with Jesus. At the new church I found, I learned so much more about the spirit world. But again, I began seeing the evil going on there too, behind the scenes. By then, I well knew I was a prophet, but not the kind that has words of blessing for everyone. I was called to challenge the church leaders about the evil they were hiding from the people.
Many things came from that, but most of it was persecution from the leaders as they tried to get me to leave the church, yet keep it all quiet from the sheep. I was finally accused of lies, and put on trial. They found me guilty of those lies and took me out of the 3 ministries I was in. This, even tho the accuser, (a young man I had taken in to disciple) repented and told them it was lies he had accused me of. (He later went out and hung himself.)
Time went on and I noticed God was not speaking to me any more. I had an important decision to make, and asked and asked Him to tell me which way to go. I finally had to make the decision myself, and it turned out well. But I stearnly asked Him why He had not told me which way to go. He said, “I put you thru those trials to give you wisdom, now use it.” I have not heard Him since. I still get words and visions for others, but never hear His voice.
I became aware no Christian liked me any more. I kept thinking, “I’m in a cave.” I was isolated from any fellowship, no matter how hard I sought it. The rest of this was mentioned above, how things went for the last decade in the “cave.” In the first 2 wildernesses, there were people I could talk to. In the cave, there seldom came conversations with anyone. When I went to the store for instance, it would surprise me to hear my own voice when talking to the cashier. I hardly ever had words with anyone. The cave experience is isolation, to the extreme. DavWms
[...] kind of Christian witness gets you despised? This does not sound too good, or is it? Click here for [...]
Do people despise you? « Heaven Awaits said this on February 19, 2009 at 3:26 am |
I should mention one more thing. As I said above, I challenged the pastors of this great church for the evil going on in it. In a short time after I was “crucified,” I was in that church one day, shortly after the leader over the church had died. I had with me a young lady whom I had led to the Lord. As soon as worship was over, she turned to me and said she thot she had a vision, but it must not be. She said she saw the now dead leader in Heaven, and he had HUGE glasses on. She said it must not be a vision because they don’t wear glasses in Heaven. I told her to ask God for more, and to note the big glasses, as they would be important.
That nite I had a dream and saw the same vision, but this time the leader was talking. He said, “Now I see. Now I see.” I awoke at this point and believed that was a message to go ahead and publish my book. I really was struggling with this, because many would recognize the un-named pastor I wrote about, and I did not want to hurt people’s memory of him… DavWms
Hi Dave,
Thanks for defining cave and wilderness. I always think of Jesus in the wilderness, where he was tempted, and King David, before he was king, hiding from Saul.
When did you have the dream about the leader with the glasses?
blessings
marianne
Yes, I went thru all the “cave” mentions in the Bible to try and determine why He had me there. I saw that David lived in a cave for some time, trying to avoid Saul. The dream about the pastor with the glasses took place not long after he died, about Jan of 1998. The church was still mourning his passing late the year before. DavWms
I felt that God have reasons that he did not answer us. He wanted to guide us through life and he send massages to our mind in order to do something. He, Jesus, always with us and if we agree to let him to control over our lives then you’ll be with God forever until the end of life and he will lead you through times when you’re having difficulties. God created all of us so whatever we do, he knows it. He’s like the same as what we are, we are flesh and God is the same.
Dear Rabbit,
You have a beautiful way of writing that expresses your soul. You are stronger than you think, and have a lot of wisdom.
love,
marianne
I cannot resist to read all of this. I admit I am going through this situation for a long time. I began to notice that people don’t talk to me neither write or call. And I also noticed the strange of feeling being alone.. To be perfect honest, it is abousate no fun. I told HIM myself ” Gosh, if I must go through this in spiritually as I have gone through hell growing up spite of my sunny personality.. then so be it”
In a way, I wish I do not have those emotions that would rock me between weepy at night and sad in day looking around people and everything almost like in new eyes. *shrug* It does not mix well with three pre teenage kiddos.. *sigh* Yet here I am walking thru the darkness.. feeling very tired and not well physically.. yet spiritually stubbornly keeps going to finish the best as I could.
I might be ingorant where everyone are concerned.. I gets furious too easily lately every time I hear or see about Irseal being abused or ingored.. without help and all. I get furious at people for being foolish and blind… but at same time.. I love them all.. knows that they don’t know what they are doing.. * sigh * Believe me, I wish crazy emotions are buried.. but it doesn’t. I have gone without emotions for years.. mastered it so well under easygoing and happy smile that no one knew. Now it is overflow.
Anyway, I better zip my lips for now. I do wish to share more on other things than eh… rather my ” dark place ” … ( I do not give up easily… but when I gets to a point when I want to give up so badly.. I would turn to God every night.. I admit.. every night.. but still feels alone.. always does. Feels like everyone doesn’t listen to me nor care base on my needs or feelings.. Eh.. what can I say.. really ? I am simply lost in wild forests )
Tamera
Thank you for sharing that. It is ok to do that here. I suggest, if can find any, find a few people you can pray with or fellowship with. There is usually someone God will give you that will give some friendship that will help you carry the burden at times. It might just be a phone call to make the day a little brighter. also, see a doctor to be sure you are not physically sick.
I am guessing you are a single mother? You did not mention a husband. Being a single mother is very hard. God is with you in a special way.
Morning, Marianne
Eh, frankly, people avoid me because I am curious by nature and would ask every questions about God or strangest things *chuckle* which set me apart from others, I guess. It might relates to my hearing loss since birth is what always stood me out among the entire family who can hear. I have seen my doctor. My mother just recently found out she has tumor.. beside her OTHER health problems.. Doctors can do nothing. That’s the fact. I don’t trust doctors very often.. only on rare occasion if needed.
But, on other hand, I do have a man who I consider my best friend of almost 12 years spite of our love for each other. We are together in heart.. yes.. But.. problem is.. I am fiercely independant and doesn’t like to depend on others but God alone. He knows that I have problem with men. Yet he sticks around loving me no matter what. ( He frustrates me sometimes because he sometimes doesn’t see nor sense what I can. I guess that is my another nature also.
I was raised by a single mother.. my very own mother. And yes, in that sense, I am single mother raising three hearing impair children which I consider is a blessing because we all can communicate.
Burden is no stranger to me.. unless you are in a tight spot with stubborn kids who wouldn’t listen nor follow rules… *laugh* which happens to be in pre teen stages.. Forgive my humor. They are wonderful in many ways.. BUT their heads need to be cracked sometimes when they are so stubborn. lol lol..
I am not as good as hearing people to write and express words.. I grew up reading people in different languages.. by their bodies languages.. and expression facial languages and lipreading and much more.. that taught me NOT to listen to words.. but their bodies because it is more telling than the words does… I always pray alone.. always. I tried to pray with others.. it feel not so right to me at all. It feels like.. no privacy between me and God. Makes sense to you ? I tried to go to different churches… Believe me, everywhere I go, I see different things inside than looking at people. Eh, it kinda feel weird.. So, for once in my life, I just do it at home.. and do research, and talk to people.. reading.. so on is only opinion I got here with me nowadays.
Feeling alone is not really burden… it is rather feeling.. isolated.. and lost.. not knowing self as well as you know others.. That is something I don’t like the feeling but.. I learned to get use to it and go over it to next step. I am not that kind of person who would really go such length to do like everyone else does. What most would call me as ” turtle and caution learner ” lol.. I am always caution in life.. too careful.. too watchful.. not trusting one single thing or a person.. I know it is not a way of living, I agree. But from all my previous childhood bad experiences is what taught me to steer clear of anyone and everything.. but live the life as best as possible. Is there any way we can communicate in different ways ? I love to learn everything .. *sigh* it is almost like if there is never stop to learn every single day.
God bless you. And I still enjoy learning and reading in this site of yours daily..to remind myself what I have forgotten.. even if they wounds deep but it means the truth comes thru 
Hope to talk soon.
Tamera
Tamera
You are not alone…..you are surrounded by angels.
God bless you.
Job said “The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away, blessed be the name of the Lord. Job had a lot of faith. We need to as well. I was told God always answers prayers, sometimes he says no because what we ask is not good for us to get us into heaven. This teaching has stayed with me all my life.
hi Jill
Yes, sometimes he says no. and sometimes he says “wait.” if we are asking for something according to his word, we will eventually get it. It will just take patience on our part.
Hi Jill and Marianne,
Job is an example of Adam and Job was a very righteous man.
Job was tested to extreme measures.
Many wise men have seen ‘the sufferings of Christ’ in the Scriptures of Job.
‘Job had a lot of Faith’, Jill writes …
Imagine this if you will … Job had everything, sons, daughters, a wife and many other possessions.
And in the matter of a few hours everything was devoured by the ‘devourer,’
yet Job did not loose the covenant with God by blaspheming God.
Job simply says …’naked came I into this world’ and he blessed the Name of The Eternal.
Even to his own flesh was he afflicted with sores and boils and pain.
He became the refused of the earth at the hand of Satan.
Everything Job valued in the ephemeral was destroyed ….
but I think Job had the most precious living thing in him ….
And that is ‘The Heart of God’.
‘The barrel was broken, but the wine was not spilled’.
His Life … the eternal aspect of man was preserved in The Hand of God.
Christians hear this because the hour is late…
It is not the things of this world that matters….
When you pray to The Lord ask for ‘Him’.
Seek ‘Him’ … First …
because without ‘Him’ … forever will be long.
Amen!
I would like to share with you all one of my favorites:
“So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You have need of patience, that after you have done the will of God you will receive what he has promised.” Hebrews 10:35
catherine
Words of comfort…thanks…hope people read them and keep the faith.
The enemy has conspired against this great God fearing nation and the nations of the earth:
-There is none to stand in the gap and intercede for the people of the Lord. All seek their own gain. People roam over the mountains like sheep without a Sheppard. But the Lord God of Hosts will not allow the mischief of the evil one.
-The people relied on Corporate America for an unfailing check and have not prepared for these times. Corporate America became greedy, therefore transferring all the work the people had to places where they can profit not a 100% but over a 1000% if possible. They used the people to extract the sketches of what it took to build this great nation. Your children engineered the trains, the factories, the mining machines. Yet all has been taken, and the people are left to be slaves to greed and be consumed.
-The Government needs complimentary support we can provide. Governance is countered by selfish interests, legal manipulation and corruption. Blindly and unwilling they have been used in the exodus of Jobs, manufacturing and wealth to greener pastures.
Where there is no vision the people perish. The country suffers for lack of knowledge to decipher the times. Where is the Church, the Body of Christ, and the Leadership of the Church?
-Church arise encourage the people. The state does not want to stand with you but you can stand for the People. Provide Manufacturing skills, help reopen factories, restore trade with developing countries. Quit criticizing the Government; use the little support they provide grow the country. “Occupy till I come” said the Lord Jesus Christ, engage for God’s sake.
Watch what you listen in the News-media; Despite our advanced education, there has never been a people so misinformed as ours. Distortion of facts and control of knowledge as this is worst than Communist propaganda in the Cold War era.
-Help the people with raw material procurement, import and exporting. The world still buys and sells, or else China would not still be in business, we alone willow in politics and speculative financial demagogies. You can still afford homes, if only there were jobs and home values were not manipulated. China prizes our products, Africa, Asia and Mediterranea still need what we make, and Europe wants a competitor.
-Gather your strength, resources and knowledge. For the sake of the body of Christ, the Land and the People we will provide engineers, researchers and developers in any field there is. Engage for sake of the people. Contact us: vpinc@mail.com
Your posts on many topics are the same. Did you even read the topic? Can you write anything else?
He posted about 50 times.!!!! on 50 different pages.
Me too. I have searched for answers! I’m a new Christian God use to talk to me he told me he loved me, that everything was beautiful, that he would never leave me and always love and take care of me and that I was saved from hell (one day when I got scared and thought I wasn’t going to make it to heaven). But now I get the cold shoulder. I have developed a habbit of self mutilating because I feel so utterly rejected from God. I’m so afraid he’s angry with me. I say God is mad at me and others will tell me no he’s not. Everyone enters church with a big smile on their face as if everything is wonderful. I would like to just be honest one day when they ask how I’m doing? An: Terrible I’m depressed lonely and miss my Father. I thought its sin that is keeping us apart but I asked forgiveness of everything even the sins that are little in some Christians eyes. Generational curses, occult practices you name it I renounced it. I have a lot of problems though with repentance. I’m always afraid, I am bitter, angry, depressed. But I try so hard to tackle these things. God has helped me in some cases but now I think because I have not repented is this why God turns his back on me? But oh God how I try how I pray and weep. At times I can eat or sleep I don’t even remember the last time I’ve had my period (forgive me if that TMI) Fine God don’t show up but I beg you at least let me have my period! People think I’m crazy, I’m addicted to God I just want him but I’m left thirsty. So when I see this I feel a bit relieved. Sometimes faith has to be enough but its hard not to get jealous of my brothers and sisters in Christ who are filled with the Spirit, having dreams and visions while I’m stuck fasting with no results. But I appreciate this because I’m not alone even when my emotions get crazy I know deep down that God sees it all. Even when I say to God you hate me! I know deep down his love for me is unfailing incurable unwavering and never ever ending. But I miss my daddy. Its like everytime I fall he pulls me back only to feel a big door slam in my face. Then I fall again and he brings me back. I’m glad I saw this.Maybe it is sin or maybe God is producing greater faith in me. Paul said consider it a joy when you face many trials. So I will try to choose joy even when I weep at night. I look at it as this I’m still alive he wakes me up everyday, he chose me from before the world was created. He has a plan for me! I will keep yall In prayers!
dear shevonne
You sound very sensitive and withdrawn. You must not hurt yourself. Please understand that God is not rejecting you. Silence does not mean rejection. It is just silence.
I also went through a wonderful period where God manifested himself to me. There were many wonderful miracles and experiences. Now there is nothing, it seems.
But the previous time was a time of making me strong, so I could stand alone and help others. It gave me beautiful memories to hold onto, to help me through this time now.
God has also done this for you. You had a time of strengthening. Now you have to stand alone, to grow and help others.
God is still there, loving us, even when he is silent.
This is the test:
we love him when he shows us attention, and gives us miracles, happiness, and blessings.
But will we love him, when everything is wrong, and unhappy, and he is silent, and does not help us?
I encourage you to thank and bless God each day, and tell him you love him, even though he is silent, and he is not helping you.
You are a lot closer to God now, than you were before. You just do not know it.
Do not worry about others, who are “happy.” They have not had their testing yet.
They are going through the strengthening period now, and later they will be experiencing what you are experiencing now.
Jesus shed his blood for the remission of sins. Nothing is more powerful than the Blood of the Holy Cross. When you repent (turn away) from a life of sin to live a life of righteousness and ask Jesus to forgive you of your sins something very powerful happens. The Accuser no longer has anything to accuse you of. Not only are your sins forgiven, it is as though they never existed: the slate wiped clean and sanctified. So when The Accuser tries to make you feel bad and say God has rejected you, simply say “Get behind me Satan! You have nothing on me! In the name and authority of Jesus and by the Blood of the Holy Cross, I rebuke you and all of your works and false promises!” You are new. You are born again.
I would really like to know who drew the picture of despair? Any info would be appreciated
devvon
I will have to research this picture, and figure out where I got it.
You might be able to google search for “Angel sorrow” and see what you get.
This is happening to me….financially everything is falling away. It’s okay, I can decide to leave this life. Then when I meet God, I will do so with teeth clenched.
Been going thru this for a long time….everything financially going away. It’s okay…we can leave this life. Then when I meet God, I will do so with teeth clenched.
hi ufa
Do not give up. These times are very hard for the saints. it is the last days, and the devil is working hard to harm us. The bible says he will wear out the saints. Keep looking up to heaven for your hope. I think Jesus will return very soon.