My Alabaster Box


I did not know what I had.

Most people think of the alabaster box that was broken to anoint the feet of Yahshua before his death, and the woman who wiped his feet with her tears and hair.

This is a different story, but there are similar elements.

I had spent many long years, over 20 years, praying for my children and family.

20 years is a long time…….

Many times there was both fasting and prayer.

Nothing .

Then there were a few hopeful moments about 15 years ago, then everything crashed again, and stayed terrible.

So many heartaches on my heart.

Night after night I prayed.

I was very tired, and many times would give the Lord “short quick prayers” like “Lord, you already know what I am going to ask for, so please let it happen soon.”  

No answer.

Maybe I would never live to see an answer.

I felt like a failure in prayer, I must not be fervent enough.

In recent years, the national and international news was of more of a concern.

Economic crashes, political dangers, moral issues.

I had still so much to do each day, and this wore me down also.


Then yesterday, I was rushing around, because I was preparing for Passover, and helping someone get ready for an international flight for early today.

I left one room to go into another room, and came around the corner too quickly, accidently knocking a small vase off my vanity.

It was a beautiful little vase my father had brought back from Korea, and one of the few things I had to remember him by.

I had put some blue silk flowers in it.

I heard the crash and looked down.


Then I heard the words in my mind:

“Alabaster box.”

When I bent down to pick up the broken vase, the most incredible, beautiful fragrance came out of it, like real flowers, perfume, and sweet powder.

I had put some vermiculite in the bottom of the vase to weigh it down a little, and keep the silk flowers in place.


Vermiculite does not smell.

It is odorless.

But in this case, the beautiful fragrance was coming from the vermiculite!

I decided not to clean up the spill because it smelled so nice.

This vase has been in my room all those 20 years as I cried and prayed, sighed, gave up, and then tried again.

I never thought about it, except to dust it and keep it clean.

Somewhere in the bible, or maybe it is just folklore, it says that all our tears and prayers are collected in a bottle, and bring a sweet fragrance before the Lord.

I think I just found my own bottle. It is a replica of the one in heaven.

I believe during all those years I prayed, my vase with the silk flowers was collecting my tears and prayers, and the Lord allowed it to break, to let me know how much my prayers and tears meant to Him.

I know He will answer my prayers someday. The requests mean a lot to both of us.


The redeemed in Revelation in heaven are represented as "holding golden bowls full of incense, which are the prayers of the saints." Revelation 5:8.

"You number my wanderings; put my tears into Your bottle; are they not in Your book?" (Psalm 56:8).



For those of you who have prayed and prayed, for days, and months and years, and have seen

no answer, no hope, no change…….

remember that every tear and prayer is saved by God in his bottle for you.

Do not give up in your prayer requests.

Your tears are not wasted.

The longer you cry, and wait, the more beautiful the fragrance will be before Him.

This fragrance is so tender and holy to Him, and He will surely answer your prayers.

33 Responses to “My Alabaster Box”

  1. Inspiring and encouraging to confirm He has heard the deep things of my heart and will heal the wounds that have seemed mine forever to bear

  2. Yes! lovely occurence.

  3. You are such a considerate person. 🙂

    Even 20 years of prayers without answers, you would forgive God and look at a positive way. It sure is a very, very long time and yet you consider the world’s corruption that’s needed to be helped by God. I must learn this attitude from you. I love your courage and how you even look into details (smell of the flowery fragrance). Very motivational. We shouldn’t give up our prayers. Perhaps it is a testimony? I hope your children and family will be helped soon. God bless you!

    Also, without your support…I know I couldn’t get this far and seek God closer everyday. I can see myself is changing in reflection to the bible. I can’t express how thankful I am to have met you. Before that, I was still a confused Christian.

    Cheers 😀 😉

  4. Marianne,
    What a beautiful testimony. Thank you for sharing your experience. I am so happy for you! It is reassuring of God’s love and attention even if we don’t think He hears.
    I wonder how long the fragrance will last…not that it matters just curious. Could you let us know?
    Such a blessing you are to all of us here….thank you 🙂

  5. Dicentra ‘Spectabilis’ (Bleeding Heart)….Every garden should have one, after all, nearly every home has one!…..Another healing gift from our Father!

  6. Beautiful!

  7. Thank you for the encouragement. I am new in my spiritual journey and with all the trials, I feel like giving up. And reading this blog, encourages me to persevere. God bless you.

  8. This came at just the right time for me. Thank you for sharing!

  9. igm,

    When you feel like giving up, just remind yourself that it will never happen,
    for Jesus assures us:

    “My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me:

    And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand”…..John 10:27-28

    May your “walk on turbulent water” be full of blessings….and be assured that you will never sink! It is the Lord’s promise!…..1 Peter 5:7

    • Thank you Richard. I am going through a lot. Health, sleepless nights, spiritual [evil spirits] oppression. I don’t know why I’m still alive. Sometimes I just want to give up but every time I read here and receive encouragements from friends and even those I don’t know, I wan’t to continue and press on. Please pray for me and my family.

      • Hi igm,

        Yes, our walk with the Lord can be perplexing at times, and that is because of our Christ-like disposition which Satan and the darkness of the world is resolute in trying to extinguish, so we become acutely aware of this evil, as our hearts become purified.

        It all amounts to suffering on account of Jesus and for him, but along with suffering and trials come blessings beyond measure.

        The Lord is fair and just, and will never forsake you! 🙂

        Will most certainly pray for you and your family; and do take comfort in the knowledge that our deliverance is but a heartbeat away.
        The Lord is on his way!

        Be blessed!


      • Hi Img,

        Blessings to you on your new journey with the Lord.

        You ARE in a safe place, He will shield you under His wings if you ask Him. Your Heavenly Father wants you to come to Him, as you are His chosen child.

        Satan does not want to give you up & he will torment you to try & win you back again.

        There are many scriptures & commentaries you can find to understand spiritual warfare & how to take control. One scripture that comes to mind is: Luke 10:19: Behold, I give you the authority to trample on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall by any means hurt you. (NKJV)

        You have the power & authority given to you by Jesus, all you need to do is believe it & DECLARE it, out loud. You can simply declare, “satan be gone!” & give praises & thanks to your Heavenly Father in the name of Jesus. You can tell satan/demons, evil spirits, etc. that you & your life are not his territory & command him to leave, with authority..believe it & always spend time giving thanks to God, out loud.
        You may have to do this more some days than others.

        And, remember, God draws nearer to those who draw near to Him.

        Put on the whole armor of God, Eph. 6:11-18…this is what God gave us armor for!

        Deut. 31:6, Be strong & of good courage, do not fear or be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the one who goes with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you. (NKJV)

        There are many verses in the bible to help you with this, pray about it & ask for wisdom & He will show you the way, if you stay close to Him & trust the Lord with all your heart…

        The enemy only has the power YOU give him.

        We are warriors in Christ!!

        Blessings, peace & love to you!

        Elle 🙂

  10. Wow! so odd Marianne all at the same time, N Korean issues occuring.

  11. Dear Elle,

    How are you ?!..and how am I ?….Well, I’m busy doing a stint of treading water at the moment…and I hope and trust you are currently enjoying a well earned stroll in the park with the Lord…such is the nature of the Lord’s rotational education system 🙂 ….Let me know when your feet start to feel wet, and I will implore the Lord to part the waters!!..(Hey, that’s not a bad line…wonder if I can get Giovanni to put music to it?!)

    Regarding Giovanni, I guarantee that if you were to play his music in your garden, you would never again have to talk to your plants….however, you would have to keep your pruning shears forever chattering! 🙂

    With love, and the fullness of the Lord’s blessings to you!


  12. Excellent

  13. Hi Richard,
    Forgive me for not getting back to you sooner. I do hope you are well these days?
    What a sweet offer to have the red sea part…so “gallant”!!
    I was extremely busy & absorbed in a christian Easter musical, a full theatre production. I was in rehearsals for a week + & then performances the next week. I was deeply immersed in the life, crucifiction & resurrection of Jesus for 2 weeks, a very moving experience. We actually had a crucifiction scene every night that just brought us to our knees (yet not even close to the reality, of course). I am thankful the experience came when it did as my life is definately challenging at this time. We know christians are more & more under attack of the enemy these days. But if God is with us what can be against us? I am not through the challenges yet. But as Caleb & Joshua believed, the land of the giants is no problem for God & we will be victorious! Just keep our eyes on Him & His promises, not on our circumstances..
    Sing praises to Him & He will bless us & our flowers & there will be the sweet fragrance of His presence in the air, even if our favourite vase breaks! Love & blessings…always…Elle 🙂

  14. This reminded me of your experience Marianne…

  15. Hi Marianne,

    What a beautiful testimony, and thank you for sharing the link on my blog post about the Fragrance of the Lord. Yes your prayers WILL be answered, if we ask in Jesus name He said He WILL do anything, for the word of the Lord will never come back void.

    The Lord Jesus also weeps and His tears have an amazing fragrance. One day I may share that testimony. I will also say that tears have an actual weight to them. So many mysteries of God to know…

    Bless you!

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  17. That’s precious thank you so much for sharing this, i just came from a friday eve service, cried allot today and so during the prayer/altarcall i poured all out, i left to wipe my face, then when stepped back into the prayer circle, to pray for others as well, i closed my eyes and opened my hands, then “the Spirit” placed something heavy in my hand, i was thinking: what is this, it felt like a cup or jar or like that alabaster egg in the display at my grandma, but now i know and understand. 🙂

    Also being in a rush i left my purse at home, so when the money offering came, i shook my head painiy thinking: “i came emptyhanded, what more can i offer i have nothing but tears today…”

    God loves you and so do i sister.

  18. Blessed me. Precious and poignant. Giodc

  19. What a Blessing!
    May God Bless the writer for pourng out to all who read. I’m sure this is a fragrance unto our Father.

  20. Thank you and God-bless you for waking my remembrance.

  21. As it is no accident that at 3:39 am I am reading this and tears fall as my heart breaks for my 6 grown boys.
    I pray I see them come to love the Lord as a close friend and their spouse/ girlfriend .Thank you for sharing this.
    The Lord knew I needed it!!!

    • dear brenda

      do not feel alone. many parents are grieving over their children right now.

      it is an evil time we live in, and children are indoctrinated with the lies of society.

      have faith in the way you raised your boys. scripture has some promises for parents

      Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not depart from it. Proverbs 22:6

      Your tears are seeds sown for their salvation. God sees everything. He will honor your prayers at the right time.

      continue to pray for your children. you may be all they have, so you cannot give up.

      the longer it takes the more intense will be their salvation.

      sent them little scripture verses to plant word of God seeds in them as well

      you may feel at a loss now, but someday, all that strength the boys have to offer will come back to you

      I pray for the salvation of unsaved loved ones every night. I will agree with you in prayer for your wonderful sons

      I have a friend now who was saved in his 50’s. his mother prayer for him until she died of cancer. he was bitter about her death. in answer to her prayers, God sent an angel to witness to him and pray for him. he fell under the power and love of God and was instantly saved.

      here is his story

      this can happen also for your boys. just believe and keep praying.

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